I quit smoking a half-hour ago. The last time i quit was probably about 8 years ago. I don’t like to disappoint myself so i never really try to do it. It’s amusing that i can go for eight or nine hours at night, and even several hours during the work day without noticing any real craving, but thirty minutes after this spur of the moment decision and i’m already jonesin. This sucks.

Cold water tastes really good. I’m told that i’ll find a whole new appreciation for food and drinks in general once i quit…but then, every non-smoker takes that for granted anyway, so it’ll only be a matter of time before i start taking it for granted too.

I have almost a full pack and intend to carry it with me wherever i go. That way i know that if i ever want a cigarette, i can just open the pack and smoke one. The only downside will be that i let myself down. I can’t guarantee that i’ll stick with this even through the end of the day, but if i do, i’ll certainly herald my will power. What do non-smokers do when they’re bored? I always know i can smoke a cigarette, and it sort of fills time. I need more water.

Three hours later — i just cracked. I am a weak, disgusting specimen.